My heroin many years ago

Early in my twenties, I stopped into a book store and noticed a magazine titled Female Mimics. I immediately thumbed through the papers and it had a profound affect on me. The papers were filled with crossdressers (not nude) but  poses of men in panties, bras, nylons and dresses. Looking beautiful with makeup and lady like poises. They were all from France, not drag queens, but beautiful very real soft looking women. I immediately purchased the magazine. Every night I spend endless hours absorbing the pictures and reading their stories. My hero was a lady called Rene, I won't expose her last name. That stirred my interest to start my cross dressing journey as I did as a boy. After work coming home stripping down to nothing and putting on makeup and panties, bra, nylons and of course dresses. I would sneak to my car and drive around town at night totally dressed. Sometimes I would walk down streets where there weren't many people, walking like a woman, high heels, the works! Wearing Panties under my man clothes to work, around town, almost everywhere.

But a young woman 20, divorced, with 6 month old baby girl came into my life. It changed me. She became my life along with her baby, who I adopted after we got married. I did continue rarely on business trips "cross dressing". But it was never really the same and for the most part my interest was in our family, three children and church and work. 

Now I'm alone once more, my wife passed and our three children have their own families. So I started getting back into crossdressing, pondering Bi or Gay experiences. My wife passed less than a year ago. I been seeing other women, mainly friends and traveling. I have written several blogs here and love this community. But my interest in cross dressing and sexuality thoughts have diminished somewhat. My interest seems to focus on family, friends and road trips with ladies. The sunsets with ladies, good conversations and of course a good glass of wine. 

I love you all and this beautiful community. I'm not sure where my final destination will end, but I will chat with you and definitely keep my membership. Let's not forget we do share a common interest that will always be part of me. Love you Jaime