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So I love that I'm a man. I have a girlfriend and she loves me.....(she doesn't know). But I also love to dress up and be a little fem....maybe even get on my knees and service someone. But I don't want to be gay. I don't think I am.. i never look at a man and think how he turns me on*****I also have a confession that most the time I'm dressed or behaving badly(wildly) is because I'm high. On Christina she gives me the courage and energy to act out these thoughts and think these thoughts....I do think this Way sober too. Just not as much*****im just wondering if im alone in the mix of feelings or there is others just like me*****loves with hugs!!!
- 16 Apr, 2026
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I have very much the same feelings as you do. I too have a beard and like the way I look. I can’t pass as a woman, it will always be dress up in public at Halloween and go out and people accept me then. It’s a huge turn on and I have had men I know are attracted to me. I’m am bisexual, but strongly attracted to women and only feminine men. It gives me a big rush
You are not alone! I feel much the same way. I'm not attracted to men romantically but I am sexually attracted to fellow dressers because I feel like they can relate. Also the thought pleasuring a fellow dresser is very erotic to me because as a male, I could relate to the physical sensation. I have facial hair and would never pass in public but in heels and stockings I feel even more uninhibited and long to find someone to share the same in person. I'm new to this site but already I really appreciate hearing from and sharing these interests with likeminded souls even if far away.
I think many of us can relate to what you are feeling. I know I can and it’s been a struggle for many years. Be kind to yourself in navigating this. If you feel like purging and stopping, just pack things away and take a break. I can speak from experience that this doesn’t go away. But understanding and accepting it and try and control it is huge. In my everyday male mode I’m not attracted to men, but as Jasmine I am. But also I know I’m not passable and this is a fantasy for me. Perhaps it’s me acting out frustration or stress or being a woman that I would like to be with. Who knows.
Hi mikey…you’re not alone my lovely..men absolutely do nothing for me at all when I’m a male or as Vicky….I’ve always thought I was bisexual but I never fancied men but maybe very feminine ones..A member on here suggested I was Gynosexual which is an attraction to the female form regardless of gender and I agree with that as it makes sense to me….there’s nothing wrong at all with being yourself mikey..I had a full grey beard for about 10yrs and shaved it off when the urge to be Vicky more often got too strong but each to their own xxxxx