Coming out

For those who know me and have followed what I write, I sadly saw an end to a very long term relationship recently. Even though it hurts and I do not believe there will be any reconciliation, I know deep down I have to let go.  There have been many years throughout my time, especially as of late that have truly realized that I am changing inside.  My passions, desires, wants and needs were not fulfilled. Not necessarily by her, but by what I believe I truly want in life right now. I went out to dinner with a very old friend last night, and even though I was regailing her w the poop show that was the last of my relationship, I felt the urge to just let her know that I was bisexual and was going to start dating men, or more hopefully crossdresser and transgender women. That I was ready for the change. The chance and the opportunity. I kept it to myself. But deep down I know where I'm at, and as scary as starting something new with someone of the same sex, it's time. I have ordered some clothes for myself, and even though I don't fancy myself as a crossdresser, it might start to bring me to a more feminine, loving, passionate person when I finally do meet the person I want to be with.  As I've always said, I give incredible kudos to those who dress often, who feel different, who want different, even if they are still closeted, because it is a huge step and a deep sacrifice.  I love every one of you and I hope you give me inspiration, just a much as I give you. But it's time.  I'm coming out and living his I need to live.