Biggest Fears and Highest Highs

This is probably just me, but I’m guessing no. What’s is one of the biggest fears about Cross Dressing? Going out in public. I’d say that would be the number one answer on Family Feud. Since no body in my family knows I dress, I can only do it outside in public. I have my times and special places to go. I never went in a regular place of business for anything.

Covid provided the easy way around it, we all wore masks. I hated wearing them, but I did. I soon found the creative feminine face masks. It solved the recognition issue. Eventually I tired of the masks and have learned the basics of makeup. Food would always be drive thru or curbside pickup. Nowadays I enjoy shopping and doing the necessary stuff, whether it’s buying girlie things in man mode or doing the errands as Deñi. People are much more accepting.

Number two is bathroom. Where do you go and which one to use. This was so nerve racking the first time. I would usually pee outside or find a porta potty someplace. I finally had to go so bad and could not change clothes that I pulled into a gas station and just went in. I knew I was gonna get found out and ridiculed but nothing of the sort happened. Now, I still get a big nervous, but heck I’m a gurl so I’m using the girl’s room.

Third would be admitting your true identity. I love driving along the road and passing truckers. They look at every car that passes, I know they do, I would if it were me behind the wheel. That’s one of the reasons I wear shorter skirts, to show off my pantyhose covered legs. We want to get trucks to toot their horn, to openly speed up and slow down just to keep even. Many of us secretly want to stop and jump in the big rig and play girl play. That might be just me but I don’t think so. 

I was driving today dressed, I was phone chatting with another girlfriend of mine. Billie is a mid sixties cross dresser who drives a truck. I call her when I know she’s on the road and we pass the time. She always mentions when she sees legs or other nice body parts. I was just saying that I’d love to meet a trucker and make love.

Later in the afternoon a truck did just that. He paced along side me making it obvious that he was looking. I even waved to him. He reacted by changing lanes a couple times and flashing some lights. I called Billie while it was happening. Should I pursue it? If he pulls over do I stop? Does he realize I’m a gurl? I kept Billie on the speaker phone so she could hear. As I pulled up to a traffic light I rolled down my passenger side window. The big rig rolls up and he’s smiling. He says he could not help it but he thought I was beautiful and my legs were gorgeous. I thanked him and said “you do know that I’m a man, right?” He was shocked, but kept smiling. He’s not into gurls but what a wonderful compliment. 

My fear of revealing myself turned into the thrill of the day. And it’s only Monday. I always say you need to put yourself out there so you can effect the world and the world can effect you. Stay safe and love often.