Who I Am

I started crossdressing at a very young age.  My sister was older and moved out of home for a while, so when no one was in the house, I would try on her clothes.  I was always drawn to dresses more than anything else as they epitomised femininity to me.  I remember sitting in my bedroom for hours wearing a dress and thinking how nice it felt.  As I got older I expanded my experiences.  I started working and would buy some skirts and dresses and hide them in an outside location securely.  Then, I would try them on when time permitted.  I loved the feel of the material and realised how boring men's clothes truly are.  My persona seemed to change greatly when dressed up too!

However, like most crossdressers, I have had to suppress my cd urges as marriage and family became a reality.  Still sometimes I do find myself alone and put on a dress or skirt with boots.  After many years, I realise that being a crossdresser is part of who I am.  When I was younger, I used to feel guilty that I had worn a skirt with panties, or something similar.  Now I accept it - it's truly who I am.

I am happy to be a closet crossdresser and really make the most of the time I can dress up - even if it is for a few minutes only.  These are the moments that I cherish the most!  I hope this story resonates in part with other crossdresser's experiences.