Why I stopped, and started again.

So, I have been dressing on and off most of my life, never going more than a few weeks without wearing something fem in private.

Even when I carelessly allowed my wife to find out, it didn't stop, because she is a wonderful person and allowed me to continue. sadly she does not want to be, nor has she been involved beyond the occasional garment purchase, oh, and she came up with the name Candi, but that is for another blog.

My bio pics are the only ones I have and were taken late 2019, what happened shortly after? Yep, lock down. 

OMG!!! How did you all cope????

I now had a full house 24/7, including 2 girls and an old boy, and none of  them knew!

I had gone from dressing at least once a week to not at all. My wife suggested locking myself in the bedroom but where's the fun in that? Who wants to get dolled up and then sit twiddling their thumbs? I wanted to be able to strut my stuff around the house, make a cup of coffee, watch some TV.

So I became withdrawn, I have an active job which kept me fit, but now I was on furlough, so I sat at home,  started to drink too much and eat even more! I piled on the pounds with out even noticing or perhaps caring, my waist went from 32" to 34" to 36".....

My wife tried, bless her, to free me from my rutt, "none of her clothes will fit you if you keep this up" she said one day. She was right, they wouldn't, so if I couldn't wear them, then there was no point in having them! I bagged the lot up and threw them away, all except my shoes and boots, just couldn't bare to part with them.

So 2 years ago I had completely stopped dressing for the first time in my life but it never goes away, does it gurls?

I am 6 foot tall and by then I was tipping the scales at over 17 stone.....something had to give, and it did, I was on the verge of becoming diabetic, my bloud pressure was way too high, and I couldn't walk from the house to the car without getting out of breathe! 

My New Year's resolution to my self this year was to get fit again, and I have, I am down to just over 12 stone and running 5 miles every other day, I am fit healthy and loving life again.

Along the way I had a bit of an epiphany, I wanted Candi back in my life and that spurred me on, I also "came out to my girls" by way of explanation for my behaviour, because I knew they were concerned for me. They were incredibly understanding and are helping me along my journey.

One day soon Candi is going to have her first outing, accompanied by both her daughters, with, I hope, many more to follow.

love and kisses to you all xxx