I how feel dressed up

Dressing up gives me such a rush. I don’t get to as much as I wish but when I do it’s very special. 
I am 64, married, and my wife is mostly cool with it. I have been in public twice dressed up and it was so amazing. But mostly at home in private.

when I was about 13 years old my cousin dared me to wear her panties. I remember how good it felt. Then I would wear some of my sisters friends panties. Later girlfriend’s panties. Always as I kind of sexual joke, but secretly I had other agendas. Only,in the last few years have I been getting fully dressed with breast plate, wig, nails, makeup, clothing. 

I am bisexual and have had some same sex experiences but mostly hetero. I am in therapy and learning more about my identity and trying to realize the feminine side of me more fully. Dressing up allows me to feel this but it is also very sexual for me. I love to be with my wife and girlfriend and would love to find a CD like me to explore all aspects of this life.