Carlaspackler – Crossdresser from Wichita

I have been a closeted crossdresser for twenty years, and although apprehensive, I would like to experience it with another human. My dog has been in my closet, but we really have nothing to talk about.
I'd like to hear: How do you deal with the anxiety? Do you shop in person? Have you been exposed? Do you have someone, other than yourself, who helps you understand the things about women, many of us never noticed?
Anyone have any false eyelash hints? I'd like very much to hear some funny or interesting thoughts and experiences.
I haven't decided if I'm going to stay and pay, so I'll f I don't respond, I probably didn't stay.