midcoastCD – Bi Male CD Admirer from Belfast

I began crossdressing about the same time puberty arrived. I just really wished I was a girl. My rough and tumble youth was okay, but I always had that forbidden desire in the back of my mind. When I was home alone I would pull my mother's or sister's panties out of the hamper, put them on and look at myself in the mirror. Often I would tuck my penis and balls back between my legs to see what I'd look like without a penis. When I lost my virginity, I had two fairly quick climaxes with a brief interlude between each one. On the second one I pulled the girl on top to see how it felt in the "sub" position. Through high ****** and the army, I kept my feelings hidden. In my late 20s and early 30s I got married and divorced twice in rapid succession. They were poor attempts to show everyone I was "normal". A heart attack at 40, followed by a much worse one at 43, forced me to change my lifestyle. I was past a point where therapy would have been beneficial, not to mention any idea gender reassignment. Since that time I have been a normal guy on the street that wouldn't gather a second glance, and a happy gurl at home. I have found very few people like myself. I have had my share of sex with both women and men. I have always wanted to spend more time with CDs like myself. For me, it's the best of both worlds. I hope to meet some people who have had the same experience. You needn't be passable. God knows I will never be.