SunnySmiled – Male CD Admirer from Monterey

The first time I dressed in femme was when I was 8 years old. My sisters dressed me up and I loved it. I knew then that I wanted to be a girl. That feeling only became stronger as I got older, however I tried to conform to society's standards. I joined the military straight out of high ****** and retired after 20 years of service. I also got married during that time. Although we had two sons my marriage was not a happy experience. I confess to having several affairs with older men with me in the submissive female role. And I have been with several Trans and Crossdressers with me in the Male role. I really don't know how to define myself except to say I enjoy both experiences. I do know that if I could be born over again, I would prefer to be born as a woman. So now I am at a crossroads in my life. I have considered leaving my wife, but how do you leave someone you have been with for such a long time? Also knowing that so many family member would never understand or accept it. I have been experimenting with makeup and dressing. I still have much to learn and still unsure of what my future path will be. I love making new friends. Enjoy listening more than talking and always love advice from others.... with respect and love to all, Sunny