Affirmations

Hello Ladies and Gents!  Gosh, it has been a long time since I wrote a blog.  Not sure exactly why but, well I'm writing one today.  I have been a crossdresser for years and am at the point where I dress every day to some degree.  I wear at least panties everyday and love the fem feelings they give me.  Still, after all this time, I find myself struggling somewhat with who I am.  I know that I am a CD (obviously) since I dress everyday.  That one is easy.  But am I a sissy?  I love the idea of being controlled by a female dominant even though I am not able to live the sissy lifestyle.  I also am not really interested in the "slave" portion of sissification but love the idea of enforced feminization by a dominant female.  So, does this make me a sissy?  Am I gay or bi? I don't think so. But if not, why do I intentionally dress in a way that I know will catch a mans eye?  Am I trans?  Again, I don't think so.  I often fantasize about being female but in reality I don't think I would welcome the permanent transformation.  I know that labels are not really important and this blog is not about labels.  It is really about affirmation of who I am.  I was thinking about this topic recently and internalized the fact that I am a feminine crossdressing sissy (despite what some definitions would dictate).  Accepting this fact gave me an amazing feeling of peace as the internal struggle has ended (at least for now).  It IS who I am and there is no changing that fact.  I hope that all CDs can some day come to grips with who they really are and achieve the peace with themselves that we all deserve.

Peace, Candi