The cross dressing dilemma we all deal with

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I love being fem. The more often I dress the more I need to and want to. There are days (like today) where I desperately crave to be noticed and desired as a woman. It feels absolutely wonderful. But I confess that there are also days, after three years of dressing regularly, that I think that my dressing doesn't make sense and I should stop for good. These down time periods usually only last two or three days. After that, once I pull on a silky pair of stockings and put on my bra, I am back in fem heaven. Now, I haven't come close to purging my clothes during these down periods because I know from experience that Candi will be back soon with a vengeance. Besides, I have so many fem clothes now that it would be quite a chore to get rid of them all (not to mention the expense to replace them when Candi returns). I really wish that Candi would be permanently on top so that the yoyo effect would stop. Nowadays, I truly get more joy from femininity than from my male self. And to be clear, I have a wonderful life as a male. I have a wonderful and understanding wife, great grown up kids, a good job - really I am blessed with no major issues. Still, when I am fem, I am more relaxed, less likely to flare up in anger, and just feel so much warmer inside.

I guess only time will tell if Candi eventually wins the day. Until then, the yoyo continues.

  • 5 comments
sandijons, Crossdresser 70
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sandijons
  • 26 Jul, 2018 at 5:32

remember candi is a part of you she is that part that is not logical or using common sense she is a sweetness you did not know you had she is a feeling that makes you tremble she is a loving being that takes to to a place of wonder she wants only to give

rachel55, Trans (TS) 71 Edinburgh Lothian
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rachel55
  • 10 Jul, 2018 at 15:54

A beautiful piece of writing. It is how so many of us feel. In time I hope Candi does come into the world and you can start to live as Candi wishes xx

cristinacross, Crossdresser 85 Glasgow Strathclyde
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cristinacross
  • 2 Jul, 2018 at 22:16

You don't know how lucky you are...don't be half out..come right out, some of us can't I know the feeling of being much calmer when dressed as do thousands of others......xxxx

Pattygetswet, Crossdresser 67 Herne Hill London
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Pattygetswet
  • 25 Jun, 2018 at 15:46

Thank you for revealing this aspect of your fem side. I too, yo yo but with me it's more slo mo (see what I did there). The return to male thing can last for months and I don't know why this happens. During those times I can hardly believe that I ever bothered. I've been ambivilant about Patty for these past 2 months following an unpleasant experience that shook me up generally. I still visit CCD though, it's a comfort.

snorgz, TV 58 Sheffield South Yorkshire
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snorgz
  • 24 Jun, 2018 at 20:32

You're so eloquent in expressing how so many of us feel Candi.. xoxo

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